Sunday, November 23, 2014

Shame by Rachel Van Dyken

Ruin #3
     Everything done in darkness, will eventually be brought into the light.
          I ran, but all it did was keep me one step ahead of my past. I tried to start over; new name, new identity. But you can't change your soul.
A fresh start at college was just what I needed. For a while, it worked. I was the party girl, the one that seemed confident, but it was a lie.
When guys kissed me--I felt only pain. 
When they touched me--Nothing but fear.
          Deep inside, every girl wants to be the beauty in the story, to find someone that will see you as their world. 
But the truth? I was the beast. And as much as I wanted redemption, I wasn't fool enough to think I'd ever get it. 
Until he walked into my life.
          I wasn't prepared to fall for someone. My scars were too deep, the wounds too raw. But he offered me peace, he offered me security. I should have known it was just another lie--I should have known that falling in love with my professor was a bad idea.
But I was powerless to stop myself from falling. 
And he was powerless to catch me.
          Because the darkness finally caught up to me, and as fate would have it, a cruel twist almost bled me dry. But I'm stronger than I knew. I'm stronger than you think.
     You think you know my story, but you don't....after all everyone has Shame in their lives-- and I'm no longer afraid to show you mine.

Being the third book in this series, I expected the story to be more intense than the first two. I was not expecting this at all. Where the other two started off in a some-what light-hearted place this one shoved you straight into a pretty dark story.

Even though she was a big part of the first two books, there was still very little known about Lisa. She always seemed really happy and pretty put together. But in this book we quickly learn all of her inner demons and about a past she has tried so very hard to forget.

Tristan he was an interesting character, at first he really seemed like he was going to be something else than what he became. His motivations weren't really that justified and I wasn't sure what to think about him for most of the book. I actually didn't really even like him that much. One of the people that was harassing Lisa, I wasn't that surprised when his identity was revealed.

This book brought up many really good points when it comes to mental health, and how society treats it. That is one thing that it didn't leave out that the other books had. It really went there, and didn't hold anything back when it comes to heavy topics. The first one was about death or dying, the second one was about dealing with guilt, this one was about cyber bulling and the effects and damage it causes. It also talks a decent amount about mental health and illness. Not too many books actually talk about that. Like in most forms of media, mental wellness is either ignored or glazed over.

A story like this is something that I think all teens should read. I was a teen before Facebook and Twitter so cyber-bullying didn't really exist the same way it does now. Teens these days can easily hide behind a screen name, and in a way cyber-bulling is so much worse than physical bullying. Because the internet is forever.
This was a pretty intense book, and I do recommend it for everyone to read. I gave this book 4.5 stars on Goodreads


  1. The more I read your reviews the more books I want to read. I have a huge list of books to get through as it is.

    1. Well most of the books I read you could finish in less than a day, so you'd get through them quickly. :)